Crippled by Anxiety: Video Share

In my previous post, I mentioned my 'near-crippling clinical anxiety.'  I'll be blogging more on that in the future but today I need to share a video with you that popped up in my news feed on Facebook. 

This video is just so much. I pushed play and the world just stopped. The Earth fell off it's axis. I'm not sure that I even took a breath. Tears welled up in my eyes. My mouth fell open. I was staring at myself. If this were an ad for a million dollar penny, I would have bought it.

 

 

What's going on? Changes in my "studio" work, newborns, mini sessions, and the future.

This question seems to be getting more and more frequent so let me take a minute a put everyone's mind at ease regarding some changes to the photography services I will be offering in 2017. 

 

First, thank you all so much for your enthusiasm! I just can't properly explain how good it makes me feel that so many are admiring and loving on my work! Especially, my newborn work. I only began officially offering newborn sessions about a year and a half ago. I never expected the response I've received and to have the opportunity to photograph all these sweet babies that have passed through my home-studio. Seriously, thank you!

 

So, what's the deal? My husband, Kevin, and I decided several months ago that homeschooling was the route we wanted to go for our daughter's education. Whew, what a decision that was! This little child of mine is brilliant, I tell ya. Keeping up with her has proven quite the challenge for me. The rate at which she is learning and the amount of information she soaks up is just stammering. Here we are, just a few weeks past her 4th birthday and she is reading basic one-syllable words already. I guess I should have expected this when she was blasting through games of Memory on the iPad shortly after her first birthday, or when she was recognizing all her letters at 18 months of age and was counting to 100 at age 3.  I can't keep up with this girl. I dunno, maybe this is the normal progression of learning for kids, but either way, I had no clue! I expected more of a struggle. I expected a battle between mom and daughter and butting heads and having to force information down her throat that I barely even knew myself. Nope, not the case. It's easy, LOL! But, it does take time and it takes effort and it takes spaaaaace.  ~  My in-home studio is now my in-home school and I am loving it. All of my studio gear has been taken down to the bare minimum and is neatly tucked away in the closet for now. As far as our daily routines, they aren't a whole lot different,  honestly. We have a great pre-school curriculum that I'm using as a guide, but I'm still figuring out what works best for us and what fits our style of teaching/learning. We work on bible, phonics, writing, etc in little tid-bits throughout the day. I still have time, in between, to take care of running this little business of mine, although juggling said business, and homeschooling, and parenting, and wife-ing, and mom-ing, and friend-ing, AND RN-ing part-time, plus all the other general life-ing on top of my near-crippling clinical anxiety is kind of, well, HARD. So, compromises are due.

 

Will I still photograph newborns? Yep, but on a limited basis. Ya'll know my perfectionist nature.... I can't just photograph a baby half-heartedly. I need every single aspect perfect. Every finger, every bonnet string, every angle, everything. Things that you won't even notice in a photo will drive me bonkers. Hence, why it takes me forever and 528 years to photograph a baby! If you have a baby on the way, better let me know soon. I'll take one or two per month in my studio and a handful of lifestyle newborn sessions per month. All the details are in my guide, just send me a note if you'd like to see it.

 

No MINI sessions this Fall/Christmas? Nope, I'll only offer mini session events once per year during the months of April and May around the celebration of Mother's Day. However, I do have room to squeeze a few more regularly priced sessions in around mid-November.

 

What about all other regular session types for this year? Nothing is changing for regular photography sessions. (family, child, couple, etc) I am pretty full right now but could squeeze in 2-3 regular priced sessions this November for any client that I've previously worked with. I'm not accepting any new clients for the remainder of 2016.  Bookings for 2017 families, children, & couples will open in January. (except newborn, you can tell me now if you need me for newborn in 2017)

 

You're not quitting, are you? I haven't made that decision quite yet, but have come very close. My family and mental health are my first priority. For now, the plan is to reduce the client volume, freeing up more time for myself, my family, and for volunteering/charitable photography work.

 

I hope this clears everything up for you guys! Much LOVE to every one of you that has been concerned!

 

 

August Special!

Please ignore the fact that I haven't blogged in months, lol! Sorry! I've got some favorite images that I'll share in an upcoming post. For now, take a look at this special that I'm running for the entire month of August!

 

Rustic Baby Mini Sessions for babies sitting and up to 18 months of age. Session is 15-20 minutes and includes 10 digital files for you to download and enjoy. The cost is $125!

These are perfect for capturing your baby's milestones! Use the contact tab to book.

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Connection.

I love connection in a photograph.

My preference in previous years was to show connection between my clients and my camera, but as I have evolved I have grown to love more of a connection between my clients and themselves. (Looking at the camera vs looking at each other.)

The connections between this sweet family were precious!!!!!!!

 


Winter light.

Farrah hasn't been outdoors since the Fall. It's been miserably cold until this weekend so we decided to get out and play a little. I think "only children" are easy to entertain... she had so much fun running and playing and picking up sticks.  I'm usually uninspired by the drab gray of the dead foliage but today felt different. The winter light was beautiful and hit Farrah's little gold spun curls just perfectly.


Air of change.

Do you do what you love? Do you really really really feel like you're truly doooooooing what you love? Following your heart? I've asked myself these things this winter. It's really a hard question to answer. I'm a nurse. I love being a nurse. This past Fall, I returned to the nursing world and I do love it, except for the revival of my debilitatingly anxious heart.  Doing what we love can have consequences but I still get that mountainous feeling to follow that thing that goes thump in my chest.

My photography journey has been fun. I love the art. I love the learning. I love helping others learn. I love to give. I love the community for the most part, there's good and bad apples but that is in every profession or art. I do not love the business, I do not love the self doubt, I do not love the fear of change. I love change in general, it's exciting and fresh, but not change as associated with my vision for my business. It makes my anxious heart worry.

Things are changing. I'm going in a different direction. I'm going to photograph for me. Watch my journey. If you like it, let's get in touch. If not, that's okay, too. 

 



A new service for me: Newborns!

Gosh, alot has changed since I last blogged! If you haven't heard... I'm offering newborn services now!!! I have an above-garage studio in my home where I will photograph all of my newborn clients.  These session will be priced the same as all of my other sessions. If you'd like my pricing brochure, send me a message with the Contact button above.   

 

Here'a a share of my first two newborn sessions. Sweet Aiden and Precious Evan.

 

My weekend in Nashville with Lisa Holloway

I had a wonderful weekend in Nashville shooting with some amazing women and learning a few new things from Lisa Holloway. Lisa has been my biggest influence through my photography journey so getting to meet her was a real treat.  Here are a few images that I captured during my trip.

The evolution of a photographer

I started my photography journey about 3 years ago. I've come a long way in those 3 years, even I can see it. Along with improved skill, equipment upgrades, and educational costs comes higher prices. Unexpectedly, my business took a loss last year. A bad one. I've always wanted to be affordable and available to my friends for portraits that were within their reach, but after completing last year's tax reconciliation, I realized an increase in my pricing structure was a MUST!  However,  in comparison to the other amazing talent in the Jackson area, I think my pricing is still extremely competitive. It's always hard to go up on your prices, but I do hope my friends and clients see the value in quality work.

Let's take a look at my evolving style and skill:

This was mid 2011. This is sweet little Emma, the daughter of a family member. Overall, the image is pretty, but there are many technical errors.

This was mid 2011. This is sweet little Emma, the daughter of a family member. Overall, the image is pretty, but there are many technical errors.

Again, a family member, my niece Abby. I think the was either 2010 or 2011. At least my focus was sharp.

Again, a family member, my niece Abby. I think the was either 2010 or 2011. At least my focus was sharp.

2012, I still love this image, but I knew nothing about white balance.

2012, I still love this image, but I knew nothing about white balance.

I started getting a little better in late 2012. I still real really love this picture of Andrew.

I started getting a little better in late 2012. I still real really love this picture of Andrew.

This is a mid-late 2013 image that I love. Still getting a little better. I was so discouraged with my family shots in 2011 that I didn't even offer them in 2012. I reintroduced family portraits in 2013 after I started to gain my confidence.

This is a mid-late 2013 image that I love. Still getting a little better. I was so discouraged with my family shots in 2011 that I didn't even offer them in 2012. I reintroduced family portraits in 2013 after I started to gain my confidence.

In late 2013 I learned some things about colors and white balance. I think this image still reflects the majority of my current style.

In late 2013 I learned some things about colors and white balance. I think this image still reflects the majority of my current style.

And then finally, I have evolved here. I took this image in April 2014. I'm getting closer to where I want to be.

You may continue to notice my work evolve over the next 2 months as I finish my final workshops and educational courses. This has been a fun blog post to write... hope you enjoyed it!

Photo Booth Fun!

Everybody loves a fun photo booth, right? Well, I'm now available for weddings, parties, or other special events! Sample image below! Use the contact me tab above for pricing info!

First Day of Spring Sale!

Ah, winter is finally over! In honor of this joyous occassion, I'm having a sale!!!! Today only, all session fees are $50 off on sessions scheduled to take place prior to June 20, which is the last day of Spring. Not applicable to currently booked sessions. Fees must be paid in full today to reserve your spot. Use the contact me tab above to check available dates.